I can fall into pity parties at times and that is a quality that frustrates me. Over the last week Claire has been sick and so have I. Claire has also been a lot more clingy with me and wants to be on my hip pretty much all the time. I have started complaining a little more about all this, but today I kind of had a get over it moment.
I am SO blessed to have a baby girl to hold and love on. A daughter that is healthy and loves me. A daughter that thinks I hung the moon.
There are so many people out there that are hurting because they have lost a child whether it be through a miscarriage, unfortunate circumstances, or some other horrendous illness. I am still keeping up with the family of Jud (the little boy that died last month after a five month battle with Krabbe) and as I read her online journal today I sat here with tears streaming down my face thinking what a fool I have been to waste any of these moments with Claire complaining about how hard being a mommy is.
I know that I do have a right to my emotions and that sometimes it is just plain hard to do this job. But what I need to do is feel the emotion for a little bit and then get over it. I know this is going to be easier said than done, but hey I am an infinished project and all I can do is take tiny steps to improve.
Well, I am off to go cuddle my baby girl again and this time instead of thinking why does she only want me to hold her I will be thinking that God I have the opportunity to hold her.
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It is hard to remember how truly blessed we are sometimes. That is one of the only good things that I think is born of tradgedy and sadness. Perspective.
It was good to snuggle your little bundle of joy today. I've missed her!
It's good for all of us to have that perspective ... I have that reminder often too and I need it. We're so blessed to be moms but it's easy to forget in the grunge moments. :)
good perspective. i am working on that too...being a momma is a blessing! i hope claire is feeling better soon!
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